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Months and Years After Death

It is extremely rare for mothers and fathers to experience grief the same way for many reasons.

If you work or have contacts outside the home, you may use others rather than your spouse as a sounding board for your grief. Sometimes this is out of concern about hurting your spouse by bringing up the subject of your deceased child. One parent may need to memorialize their child more than the other does, which can lead to conflict. Parents may also put undue reliance on the truism that after one year (going through all family holidays/events), things will be much better.

This may or may not be the case. While the second year may be better, the painful memories are not gone. A bitter surprise is those events that only happen every other year (alternating holiday visits to grandparents for example). Some families actually find the second year harder, perhaps because their child’s death now seems so final. For others, it may be because friends and family lessen their support if they don’t know how much the hurt continues or how best to help. After a few months, many parents feel that others don’t want to hear about their dead child anymore. Certainly, by the second year there is a sense that parents should be moving on – or if they truly are moving on, that the pace should be faster. By the second year, others want grieving parents to focus on their remaining children and the future.

However, one way that some parents have that found allows them to remember and talk about their dead child with not only the approval of their friends and family but, indeed, with their blessing, is an annual “event” in the child’s memory that benefits an organization or service that your family and the community value. Many parents find that talking about their child for the three months it takes to organize the walk/run/golf tournament and for the month afterward when people are still remembering the wonderful good the event will do for others is exactly what they need to keep their child’s memory alive in a constructive and acceptable way. Activities like this help to allay parents’ great fear: that their child will be forgotten.

Finding ways to work through your grief may require the help of a psychologist or other mental health professional, a clergy person, or a support group. Your own children’s cancer center, your local children’s hospital, or your hospice agency is likely to have support groups for parents. If they have not told you about this service, ask. As you talk with people or search online, you will find that there are bereavement groups that are specific for children’s cancer and others that are for parents of a child who has died at any age from any condition. When you consider joining a bereavement group, understand that the first group you attend may not be the “right” group or you may not be ready for a group. If your experience does not feel right, you may want to try another group or wait a few months to attend again.

You may find medication for anxiety or depression helpful but you should never feel that medicine is being forced on you, so you will “get over it” quickly. You may want to discuss your options with more than one professional. If you do decide to start medication, be sure that it is carefully and regularly monitored. Often, physicians will recommend that a psychiatrist monitor the medication because a psychiatrist is trained to prescribe the best drug at the best dosage for you, while minimizing side effects. A psychiatrist can also help you come off the medication safely when it is time to do so. Medication, alone, is rarely prescribed. Instead, it is used in conjunction with counseling to help you make the best use of the recommendations you and your counselor discuss.

The sadness that you are facing as parents is true for your surviving children as well. The memories linger for them, too, and they also see those memories reflected in your face, your actions, and your tears. They may need help from a professional. Or, they may need help from a support group of kids their own age who have shared their experience. They may need medication, although this is rare. Probably the most common help comes from friends, especially if the child is older. Offering a consultation with a professional grief counselor is likely to be met initially with disdain and the quip that they don’t need or want that kind of help – they’re not crazy!. It may take many months, but older children or young adult siblings may eventually decide to see a counselor or join a group. In general, openness about the child who has died, pleasant remembrances through pictures of activities and trips, and frequent mentions of the child by name all serve to keep memories alive.

Idealization of the dead child (“If Mary were alive, she would always…” or “If Tommy were alive, he would never…”) are not only unfair but probably unrealistic as well: who knows what Mary or Tommy might have done. But your surviving child lives with these impossible comparisons with no way to prove that they are at least as good as your dead child unless you consistently remind yourself to cherish the unique and good qualities of each, individually. Your children’s pediatrician can be an independent judge of how your children are doing. Ask for his or her expert opinion and referral for you for parent counseling or for one or more of your children if there is concern about how he or she is coping.

Months and Years After Death was last modified: November 19th, 2014 by Geoff Duncan

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